John Rowan, in loving memory

Dr. John Rowan (1925 – 2018)

 

I have been meaning to write this for some time now. Dr. John Rowan has had a huge impact on my life, so much so that I am still integrating certain insights. He passed on in May 2018 and, I feel, it is time for me to let him go.

<deep sigh>
So, here we go:

A humble man, a great man, an academic, an enlightened being, a mystic, a Kali Ma devotee, my mentor at Rushmore University and a man that brought a massive amount of clarity, wisdom, and sobriety into my professional as well as private life.
Always alert, aware, funny and ready to surprise with a joke, gesture or deep insight.

He dedicated ten years to the Centuar, Subtle, Causal and Nondual stages of the Wilber map, respectively. Forty years! I cannot even begin to imagine how much perseverance and determination one must possess to walk down this road of slow but thorough personal and spiritual development.

No doubt, he would have laughed at such meaningless labels, but in my opinion, he was one of the partyakabuddhas (a solitary Buddha), a follower of the Theravada or Sutrayana path (as opposed to the tantric and mahamudra/dzogchen paths that also lead to the Non-dual).

At the Akademija TCT (ATCT, our three-year private school for transpersonal consultants) we enjoyed his loving presence five years in a row, learning from his vast academic and empirical knowledge. During those visits I benefited immensely from his audience; I drove him around, ate with him, and translated his words at the ATCT seminars.
It was he that introduced me to the Wilber map in general and the Non-dual in particular during my Ph.D. studies at Rushmore (and later on in person as well), changing my perception and pretty much everything else, completely…
…right after he thoroughly dismantled my ego-fueled academic papers and inspired me to begin to write from my Heart.

In-person, we have always had more or less meaningful talks about Wilber map, mystical and magical experiences, humanistic and transpersonal psychotherapy, and life in general.

He was able to shift levels of awareness with the greatest of ease. Being or living at the Authentic level by choice, he could switch to the Causal or even to the Non-dual level at the moment’s notice.

He embraced the personal and the transpersonal levels with equal grace. No denial of personal and mundane things and no adoration of spiritual things. 

His presence was calm and yet strong, simple yet clear.

He was one of a few people (if not the only one) that really, really understood me… and neither wanted nor needed anything from me.

And he was so graceful in person! I can still recall a situation when I took him to dinner in Ljubljana. It was an early evening, and it was already dark. I didn’t really know how to get to the place and I just drove around, trying to find a way. It must have been obvious I didn’t have the slightest clue where we were. Dr. Rowan, however, just sat there in my car and silently tolerated my aimless driving.
After 20 minutes or so he looked at me, smiled and said: “You don’t live here, do you?”
LOL
🙂 🙂

I particularly remember one more event: one rainy Sunday in the morning I went to his hotel in Ljubljana to take him to our seminar at ATCT.
He was waiting for me, meditating (he did not approve of being late!). When I entered his room, he stood up and looked at me with clear beaming eyes. I could sense lightness and clarity around him and in the room.
I asked how was his morning thus far and he smiled and said that he just had his breakfast.

I came closer to him, looked into his eyes, put my left hand gently on his right shoulder and said smiling and with respect: “Now the Buddha is not hungry anymore.” And the Living Buddha, in all his modesty, lowered his eyes.

I miss him so much!
<tears>

I was told that when the citadel shattered, he was at peace, transitioning out of his worn-out 93 years old body gracefully, depriving Great Britain and indeed the whole world of the rare Living Presence of an Arhat…

His legacy still lives on in his 20 books, numerous recorded interviews, and lucid poetry.

As far as this individual here is concerned, well, Dr. John Rowan’s spirit lives on in my integral approach to life and psychotherapy, in my (more or less unsuccessful) attempt to embrace the personal with equal vigor as the transpersonal…

…his spirit thrives on in our school ATCT, and in the lasting gratitude for his immense contribution to me, my students at ATCT, my loved ones, and my family…

…so long, my dear John Rowan, thank you for your silent lucidity and see you around.


His web site is still available, lots of info there:
http://www.johnrowan.org.uk/

Never ending story

InfinityMinuli vikend smo na Akademiji TCT, šoli za transpersonalne terapevte, gostili mojega bivšega profesorja iz Rushmorja, Dr John Rowana.

Dr Rowan je svetovno priznani avtor, psiholog in psihoterapevt in predvsem samorealizirani posameznik. Samorealizirani v tem kontekstu pomeni, da so mu izkustveno poznana vsa stanja zavesti, o katerih govori Wilberjeva shema (beri: vsa stanja zavesti, ki jih človek lahko doseže).

Doktor je vodil dva seminarja, Dialoški Jaz in Subtilni transpersonalni nivo. V petek pa smo uživali v krajšem neformalnem druženju z njih.

Tokrat smo Dr Rowana gostili že petič in v vseh teh letih sem z njegovo pomočjo realiziral res ogromen napredek. Njegova povsem preprosta in na trenutne celo otroška prisotnost in istočasnost starodavna modrost –  vse to vedno vpliva name izrazito pozitivno in blagodejno. O tem sem že pisal prejšnje leto (Blog: Nedualno >> ), ki je bilo zame prelomno glede realizacije Nedualnega stanja zavesti.

No, letos se tako hudi preskoki v stanju zavesti pri meni niso dogajali, sem pa znova spoznal, da je zame učenje in poglabljanje zavedanja nikoli zaključena zgodba. Never ending story.

Venomer spoznavam, kako globoka je človeška zavest in kako enostavno je živeti v stiku z najglobljimi tokovi Življenja v Srcu. Trud in zaganjanje osebne moči ob navidezne zidove ega, iskanje in iskanje Življenja v sebi, hoja po poti osebne in duhovne rasti – vse to je sicer lepo, ne pelje pa prav zares nikamor, iz enega vidika (t.i. Kavzalni nivo). Cilj je že dosežen, izvor reke in reka sama in še morje, v katerega se reka izliva, vse to je Eno. Ni tukaj kaj doseči.

Zgodila se je tudi inspiracija glede Dialoškega jaza in rezultat tega je nova spletna stran za širjenje informaciji glede tega izredno učinkovitega načina dela poglabljanja in širjenja zavesti.

🙂

Nedualno

Minule tri dni in pol sem preživel v družbi Dr John Rowan-a, mojega bivšega profesorja iz Rushmorja, mentorja in samorealiziranega posameznika. Rad mu rečem tudi “the living Buddha”. 🙂

Na Akademiji TCT®, naši triletni šoli za transpersonalne svetovalce oz terapevte (podrobnosti tukaj >> odpre se nova stran), je Dr Rowan predaval tokrat že četrto leto. V teh štirih letih se je vsako druženje z njim zame končalo z velikim korakom naprej v smeri transpersonalnega napredka.

Dr Rowan sicer vedno poudarja pomembnost doseganja avtentičnosti (ozaveščanje, soočanje in preseganje sence), ampak njegovo stanje zavesti pa je (vsaj jaz ga tako doživljam) venomer Nedualno. Sicer pa včasih tudi sam pove, da biva na tem nivoju.

Že prejšnje leto je bila zame njegova prisotnost močna opora in pomoč v smeri koraka naprej iz Kavzalnega nivoja na Nedualno. Tokrat pa se je zgodil še korak naprej. Nedualno (torej ne vedsko, ampak budistično nedualno: anatta in sunyata) je naravno stanje, niti možno ni bivati kje drugje ali kako drugače. Moja strategija je bila, da sem se trudil priti v to stanje. Pač ostanki prejšnjih tendenc al kaj. LOL
Sedaj pa je jasno:
dve ribici zdolgočaseno plavata v morju in ena reče: ej, meni je dosti tega. Greva na bolje, dajva poiskati tisto vodo, tisti ocean, baje je tam popolna svoboda.

LOL
Hahahaha hahahaha
You guys wanna HP?
LOL

Kr neki.

Moja naloga na predavanjih v petek (za zakjlučeno skupino), soboto in nedeljo (za celotno šolo)  je bilo prevajanje. In moram priznati, da je prevajanje ob zavedanju Nedualnosti kar precej smešna zadeva. Na trenutke nisem sploh vedel v katerem jeziku govorim (torej ali prevajam iz angleškega jezika v Slovenščino ali obratno), kaj govorim in komu govorim. Verjetno je bilo to očitno vsem. Oh well…
🙂

Bilo mi je tudi zanimivo zaznavati reakcije slušateljev/ic ob demonstraciji vodenja seanse psihoterapije iz Kavzalenga nivoja. Ma LOL.
Dejansko je tak način dela res zelo napreden in zahteven, ne samo za terapevta, ampak tudi za stranko (in gledalce, očtino).

No, kakor koli že, moje srce skače od veselja, ko pomislim na trenutke stika z njim, na globoke uvide, ki se v njegovi prisotnosti zlahka dogajajo in tudi ob pričevanju njegove resnično sočutne in nenasilne narave.

Meni je (kot ste nedvomno razumeli iz prejšnjih Blogov) sam avtentični nivo kr neki, po domače povedano (morda je čas za novo serijo seans terapije LOL), v družbi Dr Rowana pa postane povsem jasno, da je prav ta nivo, torej prav avtentičnosti in humanistični duh nenasilnosti in spoštovanja sočloveka tisto, kar je (njemu in morda tudi nasplošno?) najpomemnejše.

No, v glavnem, najprej samo akademsko mentorstvo in potem postopoma tudi posredno ali direktno mentorstvo pod okriljem Dr Rowana je meni do sedaj res ogromno doprineslo.
Jasnost, zavedanje, transpersonalno, ljubezen, sočutje, stik, modrost in živost – vse to je ob njegovi prisotnosti v zadnjih petih-šestih letih zaživelo v meni in mojemu življenju v zelo zelo intenzivni in svetli luči.
In seveda, tudi naša šola in sama metodologija TCT® brez njegove pomoči ne bi bila to, kar je.

Hvala vam, dragi Dr Rowan.
I love you.
<tears in my eyes>